Christmas

After mass we decided to open our presents. My sister and brothers, mom and even Mimi got presents. They were all awesome. Also check out the sweet pajamas Tony got me. They are so hot! Alfie decided to be domestic and make tamales. Delicious! Life is good today.

Christmas Eve Lopez Style.

Alfie's house is being invaded by her children and presents!

For good.

I've become someone new. Evolved. I'm not sure yet if I've evolved into something better or worse? I've become increasingly aware of people who display weaknesses that I once possessed and try very hard to help them rid these bad habits. I am not perfect woman, I try to do the best that I can with what it is I have. I use to think that loving someone too much would eventually turn to hate. I'm I right? The romantic in me still chooses to believe that a person really can change. My question is not whether one can change but if one can change for good?

I <3 Phillie

My boyfriend and I have been recently vacationing in Philadelphia, PA. It was a very short but a very fulfilling trip. I will say that despite us being there for almost four days, I did not get to see all that I wanted. But I am optimistic that we will return soon. Tony's friends were really amazing and interesting and I'm very glad to know them now.

So life is returning to the usual same old shit! I'm not happy about returning to work and I still have Christmas shopping to do. Oh well?

I miss vacation already. Sigh...

johnny & charlie

An awesome picture of Jessie and Miriam's boys! They are soooo cute.

cuteface

Busy Nothings.

This year seems to be the year of traveling. We recently just got back from a wonderful time in Atlanta, GA. Visiting my dad and Angela was surprisingly relaxing and fun. This was actually one of the few times that I forgot to bring my camera, so unfortunately no pictures to show you all. I'm looking forward to going to Philadelphia next week. I've never been and I've already found a couple of places I'd like to go. Nothing really new to report, seems like life is just full of busy nothings.

Once loved.

Tengo una nota en mi cartera que dice "te amo." Yo lo encuentro de vez en cuando y la sonrisa.

My Lady.

Initially I was kind of disappointed about not having anything good to do today, but of course I was pleased just to hang out with my main lady. If I haven't mentioned her before I'll mention her now, her name is Mimosa. She is my cat. I've been recently neglecting her by choice I suppose but, nevertheless she is always a priority. She is so cute.

Ping Li.

Bearisland.

Bundle of Joy

Patiently waiting for a little bundle of joy! No, not my own, but my friend's Walt and Karen! I am so excited I can't even contain myself. They are going to be wonderful parents! So congratulations to them. Lately I've just been trying to take as many breaks as possible. I feel bad for my boyfriend just because he's been working everyday from 6am to 11 pm it seems. I guess that's just what happens when you work at a hospital. I'll at least get a little break this weekend when I visit my mom and brother in Virginia Beach. Halloween is this Friday and I'm excited, even though it's not as wonderful as it use to be. I'm sorry everyone can't hang out again like they did last year. I am also a little disappointed that I haven't gone to a pumpkin patch this year. Next year maybe...

Border Town

Because I haven't written in a month, I'll refrain from updating you on how my life has been recently. I'm went home sick today. Everything seems a little better these days. Last night everyone went to see "Border Town" at the Byrd. The music was awesome! I was so impressed with Trey and Ryan's score. They are truly talented and accomplished. I am so proud.

Beautiful Scent

The beautiful scent of body odor, beer and cigarettes on a man's body always remind me of my grandfather. These scents may arise feelings of disgust in most, but in me the sensation of smelling all three at once, evoke only feelings of love. I forget sometimes why I love the smell of certain objects. But I'm instantly reminded of the familiarity as soon as the aroma enters my nostrils. There is a memory. When was the last time you submerged yourself in someone's scent? I certainly, can not recall.

These gals.

I forget sometimes, how fun these gals are! They are so cute. Roomies.

ooooh. aaaaah.

NADIA,
check out these babies! Ah! Lombardy Market, where are you when Need you? yum yum.

Unable to do....zzzz...zzzz...zzzz

I'm so tired that I can't even move. Tuesday is the THE WORST day of the week. Well, at least at my job it is.

You are so sweet

To me.

......

I've never enjoyed speaking on the phone. It is, in fact necessary however entirely a waste of time. The only thing that I can recall being equally annoying is waiting... it makes me take photos of myself. Argh!

Amen Molly Bee.

Alas, someone on the internet who I agree with! Needless to say, she is also a co-worker of mine. So, she probably has a lot more or equal insight on the subject of "real jobs" than I do.

3 Points she makes:

The American workforce may be at the office for 40 hours a week, but they do about 4 real hours worth of work. The rest of the time is spent gossiping or fucking around on the Internet.

There are few jobs that require actual skill and brainpower; those that do generally require a lot of training and offer little in the way of pay and benefits.

People at the top are not necessarily the smartest or the most motivated. They are either well-connected or ass-kissers.

Amen Molly Bee!

On another subject, I'm on a quest to do as little as possible today. At the moment, I'm quietly, spending time with myself (or at least until my roommates get home). Despite the little bit of warmth outside, it feels like a fall day. I want sushi...REAL BAD!

Lovelies.

A quick update for all the lovelies. A couple of new pictures. Sad, new chair already broken. Roomate garbage. Some lovely earrings I bought at Fan Thrift this weekend. And last but not least, my fantastic breakfast! It's a gorgeous day outside, fall is coming! Yeah!

You're so pretty as only a boy can be.

I'll wear the red dress
The one I use to wear before you knew me.
I'll never take it off and,
pose for you as if photos are being taken.

You're so pretty as only a boy can be.
Too pretty that sometimes I can't breathe.
Your love's just so easy.

You lie beside your dreams in the dark.
And a sliver of light beams in my eyes.

Outside, the train's loudly passing by
You cover my ears to mute out the sound.

weird.

A quick rant. What's up with girls and boys being friends and making out? Weird.

Happy Birthday Piggy.

My birthday wishes have come true. Thanks for the awesome gifts. I love you guys...

pre-birthday gift

An Issue of Optimism, God and Church

A blogger asked me early July if I considered myself an optimist my only response was, yes. The question was asked in response, to a blog I wrote about a conversation that I had earlier that day with my mom and sister about whether or not one should marry in the church.
The best way I can respond to that comment is this:

God is a popular mother fucker! He gets all the credit for everything that's going great in your life. Unfortunately, he's also got the reputation for fucking things up whenever something goes wrong.

Oh my God! Why God why? Jesus Christ! Goddamn! Thank the Lord.

I wonder if he's even intervening? I've always just envisioned him as a dude, kicking it in the sky. Anyway, I don't think he's making people feel bad for not getting married in a church. He's probably got better things to do than that. A church does not make a marriage. God does not make a marriage. Two people who want to hang out for life, do.

I'm optimistic about people making it work without the help of God and church.

The best thing you can ask for in a relationship is fun, freedom and having that person make you feel good about yourself. If God helps, thank him, but if he doesn't, well at least you've always got someone to blame for things going wrong in your life.

But who knows? I've never been married before, so what do I know? Amen.

robot

Keats.

A thing of beauty is a joy for ever:
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing...

Bower-a leafy shelter, or rustic dwelling.
Now, I know. Endymion Book I my favorite poem, by John Keats.

Sleepless

On sleepless nights
I seek my weary friend
Who comforts me
When I need him.
He has changed
but for the worst it seems,
and all to quickly he haunts my dreams.
He speaks politely
but never genuine.
I feel he is sad,
but I dare not ask him to come in.

(My office/bed)

Oh my God!!

Barnes and Noble Party Tonight! I don't need to write more my pictures are enough. Walt, Karen, cupcakes and fans.

count down.

ladies and gentlemen
countdown till Friday.
all of my friends know what's up.

Go werewolves.

To No One,

On a summer night warmth is needed for a pair of cold hands. It's late enough to hear the voices of hopeful men and women desperately seeking comfort for at least a night. The bars are giving their signal for last call. Richmond closes early. My wishes have already been made to the moon and the stars tonight and, the cool breeze that flows through my window, has called me to sleep. Sleep to dream. If you'd listen to your heart, you'd know that, I'd love you if you asked me to.

In Search

need, need, need... want, want, want!!!
love, love, love... desire, desire, desire.

I know! I haven't written in a while but I'm here now. I'm currently listening to a Korean rock band named Jaurim. My July has been going very well so far. The new place is great, the only problem is that I have new bills! I've been to a couple of movies over the past few weeks. Saw Wall e, and Hell Boy II. I'm looking forward to seeing Batman at some point this weekend.

I'm currently playing hooky from work and in search for a vintage dress and a pair of black flats. Hasta La Pasta.

Thoughts on a conversation.

A church is a building.
A faith is a confidence or trust in a person or thing.
A belief is an opinion or conviction.

I will believe in church when it has faith in me.

It's hot.

Moving sucks.  Just to let everyone know.  

Help.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.

Fair?

You walk the streets of your city. You say your city like the way Americans say “their country.” You never feel right saying- my country. Because for some reason looking Mexican means you can’t be American. Still, you try at least. You try like no one else on earth tries to be in two places at once.

a good day.

Some more of my favorite things. Joni, and Pho.

Today I spent the day with Venessa, Trey and Tony. Virginia Beach is lovely. We enjoyed a day by the pool celebrating Tony's recent graduation. It was nice being surrounded by genuinely kind and loving people. So all in all I would say it was a good day.

Happy.

Today definitely felt like the LONGEST day of the year. Lately I've been needing to look at things that make me happy so here are some, 1.) Happy Birthday Panda. (obvious reasons)
2.) blue bonnets 3.) WHATABURGER (need I say more) 4.) cutest baby ever!

3rd Wheel.

Let me tell you all about two friends of mine. Their names are Walt and Karen. Today I was very pleased to hang out with both of them. Normally, this isn't uncommon because they are boyfriend and girlfriend. We had dinner and went out for a tasty treat at Baskin Robbins after our meal. I think that I enjoy their company so much because I'm equally in love with both of them, for very different reasons. So, thanks Walt and Karen for never making me feel like a third wheel.

Different.

I don't wish I was different. I just wish that there were more kids like me.

Argh...

I recently realized that I don't like being called sweetheart. It makes me think that people don't remember my name. Repeat after me, JENNY or JENESSA. Again. JENNY or JENESSA.

Dark.

I remember him dark. Or sometimes I remember it darkly. Yes, he was dark. He still is except that it is not easy to think of him as still existing, and everywhere my gaze turns he isn’t there.

I was in love once.
When you are in love no single metaphor is enough.
And you remember the night you slept with him when you were not in love and neither was he, a long time ago.

Popsicles ain't cuttin It.

It is just way too hot to not have air conditioning. At least I'm clean. I've been showering every morning and every night. Lame.

Its a Target Thing.

Posting this photo per request. Off to work, and not excited about it! I really should start getting dressed.